What the Friday!

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Welcome to What The Friday! where I share things that made me say WTF this week.  In a good way.

Gilmore Girls!!

Its finally official and Logan will be back!!!  I’m so excited, must start re-watching ASAP!!!!  I also recently discovered Gilmore Guys which is a podcast with two dudes discussing the show and that sounds super fun.  They do episode by episode so I’ll start listening when we start re-watching.
Yes, I said we, Mr. Won’t Run is a fan too.  Of Lauren Graham.

Me Before You

This is a book by Jojo Moyes that I read with my little Brunch Book Club, although I didn’t actually get around to reading it when the club did.  We found out it was being made into a movie (6/3/16) so I finally read it and really liked it.  I had been warned about ugly crying so I was prepared and made it through with no tears, but they just released a trailer that I barely survived!!  I think seeing it in person is going to completely ruin me.  I should just schedule an appointment with a therapist now.

Whole 30 dinners

It’s funny, we started a round of Whole30 in January and were both over. it. by day 7.  We completed it last year and loved it (would recommend it to anyone), we learned a lot about food and how it affects us, but this year I think it just made us think “yeah, we know we should be eating this way most of the time so let’s just do that”.  Now that we’re not officially doing the program I seem to be cooking more Whole30 compliant meals than ever before!  If the term Whole30 scares you, just think of it as whole foods, nothing scary about that.  These two recipes were so tasty and will definitely be on rotation!

First up was the Chicken Chowder from the Whole30 Cookbook.  It calls for broccoli which I wasn’t thrilled about at first, thinking it would just be soggy, but you actually blend that up with the chicken stock and coconut milk and spices before adding chicken and sweet potatoes in, so you get the goodness of broccoli without it being mushy.  I didn’t think the broccoli flavor was strong at all, but if you’re not a fan you could probably try it with cauliflower instead.

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Then it was Vietnamese Lettuce Cups from the NomNomPaleo Cookbook, and you can find that recipe here.  Really easy and so delicious!  Mr. Won’t Run said “yeah, you can make this again, like tomorrow”.  PSA: that chili garlic sauce is good but HOT!

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New recipes I wanna stuff my face with

Dumpling Week – PDX

If you’re local, the Oregonian’s Dumpling Week starts tomorrow!!  From February 6th through February 13th, twelve amazing restaurants, serving up dumplings like you wouldn’t believe.  Print your dumpling passport to collect stickers and enter to win prizes, even though just eating the dumplings is prize enough!  See all the restaurants and their divine dumpling creations listed here – Salt & Straw even has one, a baked salted caramel apple dumpling with double fold vanilla ice cream.  WTF!

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What WTF-worthy things did you discover this week?

A Wasted Day

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If you want to skip this post I won’t be mad at you.

I’m feeling a little whiney about what I did (or didn’t do) yesterday, and writing about stuff helps me figure things out so this is more of a journal entry than a blog post that offers any useful content to society.  Sometimes those are fun, right?

So, let me back up.  The last six weeks since I quit my job were basically a staycation.  I gave myself some time off without guilt to do or not do whatever I wanted.  Sleep until noon?  Sure!  Stay in pajamas all day?  Absolutely!  Binge through the DVR backlog?  Duh!  But after a while of that I was getting sick of my lump-on-the-couch self, and I found that not having a schedule anymore was harder than expected, it would suddenly be 3pm and I hadn’t done a darn thing all day long.

I decided I’d start real life with a real schedule in February, and while the morning is pretty fixed, the rest of the day is open to change but this is my general idea:

  • 5:30-6:30  Wake up, coffee, make breakfast for Mr. Won’t Run and I.  This started when we did W30 and we really liked starting our mornings off together so I knew I wanted to bring this back.
  • 6:30-8:00  This is flexible… walk Koko, more coffee, check emails, read, watch some news (KGW for the win!), leave at 8 for yoga.
  • 9:45-11:00  Back from yoga, snack, do a little cleaning, organizing, a load of laundry, get showered and ready for the rest of the day.
  • 11:00-12:30  Run any errands I need to like grocery shopping, if no errands than I can blog or read or work on the two online courses I’m taking or research my business idea.
  • 12:30-1:30  Lunch
  • 1:30-4:00  A second block of time where I can blog or read or work on the two online courses I’m taking or research my business idea.
  • 4:00-5:00  Get started on dinner.  This could change depending on the day and what time Mr. Won’t Run will be getting home.

Monday and Tuesday went great!  I stuck to the morning plan but afternoons were a bit scattered while I’m still figuring out what really works for a schedule.  I was still getting stuff done though and feeling accomplished by the end of the day.

Then it was Wednesday.  Mr Won’t Run ended up leaving early for work, before the 5:30 alarm went off, so he was gone when I woke up.  Awesome, I could sleep in, but did I want to?  I honestly sat there in bed for about 7 minutes, staring at the alarm on my phone.  Should I get up?  Should I reset it to 7:30 so I can sleep in but still make it to yoga?  I’m feeling pretty sore though.  Should I just go back to sleep and see what happens?  I went with the last option, figuring that if I really wanted to be up then I wouldn’t fall back asleep, but if I fell back asleep then my body must need it, right?

I woke up at 10:30.

Well, I actually woke up about every half hour between 5:30 and 10:30 so it’s not like I got quality sleep.  And then as I was scrolling Instagram I saw the gorgeous sunrise photos my Portland friends had posted.  There was an amazing hot pink sunrise and I totally missed it.

It took me forever to get going and I felt like I was moving through quicksand all day.  I didn’t do any blogging (wanted to blog every day this month and then missed day 3!!), I didn’t do any pleasure reading, I didn’t even watch any TV.  I basically just walked Koko, lost time on Facebook (sort of like those alien abduction stories where the people lost time), and ventured out to the grocery store around 2pm.  The best thing I did all day was make dinner.  It was delicious, but I want to feel like I’ve done more than that in a day.

Even though I was/am quite disappointed in myself, I think it was a good thing.  It made me realize I want to be up early getting my day started, I always feel better on the days I do.

Jump to this morning… alarm goes off at 5:30, Mr. Won’t Run was already up and he was getting ready to leave so no breakfast.  Kissed him goodbye and then considered getting back in bed.

W . T . F .

Even after feeling crappy about the day before, I was considering doing it again!  What is wrong with me?!!

Apparently my disappointment made me stronger because today I resisted my bad habit of sleeping as long as possible and then some (which feeds my depression), I put my rain jacket on and walked Koko, and put my yoga clothes on and headed to the coffee shop.  They open at 6am.  Maybe this was the fight or flight response, getting as far away as possible from the cozy bed that might kill me?  Haha!

So today I am one of those coffee shop bloggers.  Sitting here drinking my cardamom (carda-yum!!) latte, clicking away on the laptop, in my yoga pants.  Hello white lady stereotype, ha!

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I’m feeling pretty proud of myself, but here’s the thing… It’s going to be just as hard to leave my bed tomorrow.  If Mr. Won’t Run leaves early and I have no reason to be up cooking breakfast (as if I’m not reason enough – but that’s a whole other issue), I will again struggle with not climbing back into our cozy, fluffy bed.  I have no doubt there will be days that I give in, but I’m determined to start making better choices and healthier habits that feed my mind, body, and soul.  Right now I know that means getting up at 5:30 and starting the day.  It’s hard to really live this life when you sleep until noon.  I say that from experience, not with judgment.

So… there’s my blog vomit for today.  Maybe you found something helpful in it, even if it’s just knowing you’re not alone with the morning struggle.  Or am I the only one?

Do you have any tricks that help get you out of your cozy bed in the morning?

Spontaneity

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I love being spontaneous!!!  As long as I know about it ahead of time.

Mr. Won’t Run has a very fluid work schedule that can open up (or close up) very suddenly.  When he gets some unexpected free time we can now spend it together since I’m not withering away in a cubicle which is GREAT!  However, if I already have plans or if I’ve got expectations in my head about the way my day is going to go, the sudden shift can be difficult for me.  I love that he wants to spend the day with me, and I love spending the day with him, sometimes it just takes me a few minutes to shift my mindset and let go of what I had planned.  None of my plans will ever be brain surgery so it’s not like they can’t wait until the next day, it just takes me a minute to embrace the new plan.  Does that make any sense?

Today was one of those days.

After yoga class (oh yeah, I started yoga again this week!) I had planned to head over to a great coffee shop nearby and do some blog work, but when I got out of class there was a text saying he was coming home and did I want to do dumplings and donuts.  Well, with an offer like that I let go of my plans pretty easily and hurried home.

We were recently talking about dim sum and I had found this article listing the top spots in Portland so we crossed HK Café off the list – we plan to try them all since that’s obviously the only way to make an informed dim sum decision!  This is an interesting WW article about eating at HK, it’s a year old but still good info.  By the way… we did try the chicken feet.  I gave it one bite, Mr. Won’t Run gave it two.  Not our favorite.  Everything else was good though, and now we have a starting point to compare the other places to.

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After that we continued on to the donut portion of our day.  It was a tough call between Pip’s and Blue Star but since we went to Pip’s last time we hit up the Blue Star on Hawthorne.

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  • passion fruit + cocoa nib – still our absolute favorite
  • raspberry + ROSEMARY!!! – we all know I have a thing for rosemary – this was a cakey buttermilk type instead of their standard brioche dough and the outside edge, oh my goodness, if there was an award for most perfect fried crispy goodness, it would go to this donut
  • meyer lemon + key lime curd – got powdered sugar all over myself but it was worth it for the love of curd

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Cakey fried perfection – look at that outer edge!!!

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Curdpalooza!

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After the donuts we walked up and down Hawthorne a bit, checking out shops like The Maple Parlor (fancy pants soft serve – we’ll be back sometime when we haven’t binged on donuts) and Portland Cider Co (got a growler of their Maui Cruiser).

After that it was bowling which has become one of our favorite spontaneous things.  We played four games and I only broke 100 on the last one.  Mr. Won’t Run always beats me but my game was sooooo off today and I have no idea why.  Anyone have any bowling tips?

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While driving home from bowling THE SUN WAS OUT!!! so we decided to take Koko on the long walk which is about 2.5 miles.

Now we’re trying to figure out if we’re actually hungry enough for dinner.  Our spontaneous days seem to rack up the calories, but at least we walked a bunch of them off this time.  It turned into another ‘best day’, but it usually does.  Here’s to embracing the spontaneous days in all their head-spinning, plan-changing glory.

Are you always up for spontaneity or do you need a minute to adjust like me?

Life Lately – Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost

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(image via IG: @thatpnwlife)

“Not all those who wander are lost”

We’ve all heard that line before (which is apparently from the poem All That is Gold Does Not Glitter written by J. R. R. Tolkien for The Lord of the Rings), but it was running through my head a while ago and it dawned on me that it could also be flipped:

NOT ALL THOSE WHO ARE LOST, WANDER

(Punctuation Sidebar: should there be a comma between lost and wander? Feels like it needs a pause? Thoughts?)

For example, sometimes the lost will stay in the same place for a while, and even though they want something different they have no idea what that something different might be so instead of wandering they stay… and stay… and stay… until it becomes harder to stay than to get up and wander.

Welcome to my life.

I quit my job in December and have no idea what’s next.  I’m scared sh*tless but it had finally become harder to stay than to go.  It was a good job for nine years and I worked with people who had become like family, but the last four years or so have been a struggle.  It’s a company in the HVAC field and my position was to support the salesman in quoting projects and ordering equipment and all the paperwork and file management and customer service that comes with it.  It paid the bills but I can tell you absolutely that I am NOT passionate about boilers.  Couldn’t care less.  At all.  Seriously.

The feeling of wanting something different had become harder to ignore, but I didn’t know what else I wanted to do or what I was passionate about so the hunt for something new wasn’t easy.  For a while I thought the doula thing was my answer but after receiving what I thought was a clear ‘YES’ to pursue that, it became a clear ‘NO’ a few months later and I’m still a little upset about that, but thankful that I tried it and now I know.

Stress over the work (and life fulfillment) situation started manifesting physically more and more over the last few years, and especially this past year with major neck/shoulder tension, TMJ issues, and headaches (and general b*tchiness if we’re being honest).  All of that compounded my up and down struggles with depression; I hadn’t been my usual happy self in a long time and Mr. Won’t Run had been noticing.  I tried to motivate myself with a post-it on the bathroom mirror – “your job is cake. suck it up. it could be worse”.  Inspiring, right?

Then an unexpected gift arrived.

I feel a little funny sharing about it, but we received a very surprising financial gift from some family for our anniversary.  After lots of discussion with Mr. Won’t Run, lots of prayer, and lots of thinking it through to make sure I wasn’t being rash, I gave my notice at work.  We agreed that I should just quit and take some time to figure out what’s next.  I can’t be a stay-at-home-wife forever, I’ll need to bring home some bacon eventually, but thanks to that gift we have a cushion that’s making the one income thing easier to manage for a little while.  I am still in awe of this situation and feel incredibly undeserving.  I’m sure a ton of people are out there like me who are hating their current jobs and feeling like they don’t have a way out and then this falls into our lap.  I promise to make the most of it!

I feel like good things are coming in February and I’ve given myself a blog-every-day challenge for the month.  Hopefully you don’t get sick of me.  I feel like I’m on a journey and it’s equal parts exciting and terrifying.  I’m trying to focus on the exciting.

So, I am now unemployed and free to wander to my heart’s content!

If only I knew where I wanted to wander to.